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Excuse the mood, but then, here is the situation:

• Life is fairly minimally interesting; it's in exactly the sort of state that I can walk around with my eyes - and brain - half closed, and it doesn't make a difference. I know this, because I was sick this week, and it was literally like walking around with my eyes closed, and it was just exactly the same as every single other day.
• Not to say that life is boring or anything; I've spent most of this week doing SysAd-like stuff, which has been a nice break from programming. I've had the chance to use iMacs (from ancient, circa-2000 PowerPC G3s to cutting edge Intel Macs), eMacs, PowerMacs, and even a MacBook Pro. I have also been (able to) spend insane amounts of time playing Rome: Total War. Which is not good, and very depressing. The good news is, that means I'm going to burnout on it very soon, so soon I'll be back to, I dunno, living in real life or something.
• The feeling of not really achieving anything (really) is still around, and getting worse. I suppose that's what's always scared me about computer programming - you can work, and work, and work, and what do you have at the end of the day? A lot of bits, lying in a particular order, doing a particular thing. And what's so great about that? Nothing, is what.

Then again, I'm lying on my bed, snot pouring out like its going out of style, so I guess I have the right to be depressed. Sigh. It'll be better tomorrow. Also, my birthday is coming up.

Could be worse, I guess. Check out this chick. Also: if I'm going to be worried I'll "never find true love", now is a horrible time to do that - I have a very annoying habit of getting major crushes in end-Feb/early-Mar. So, y'know, wait until mid-April or so, and then accept that it's all overs oh noes etc.

Labels: bored, sickness

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