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1. I had the strength to write a proper blog entry.
2. Was not rushing so much on PT3, and had time to "enjoy the scenery" as it were.
3. There wasn't so much happening this month. Family trip! Moving house! Finding house! Grr.
4. My mouth was enjoying greater pleasure. Stress makes me bite my cheeks, causing awful gashes, and sometimes I get toothaches which come and go. Grr and all that.
5. The Goon Show was on more than one ruddy time a week. But not all the time - there can be too much of a good thing, you know.
6. I had the energy to do something interesting before falling asleep.
7. I could be sure that I will fall asleep, and not toss and turn all night. Then again, in the aircon, in that sheer comfort, I'm not sure relaxation will be optional.
8. I had a car, but that's silly, both in my finanical situation and particularly considering my unwillingness to work with large mechanical things.

Also, I wish I was watching Brazil this weekend. But hey, can't have everything, right?

Labels: any dream will do, can't have everything, wishes

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This time, though, I've both gotten a little sleep, and am well fed and all that. So it's in a pretty nice mood that I'm sitting in the living room, listening to all this music I haven't heard in *ages* ('cos of Karanth's speaker issues, right?). Man, are these beautiful songs. Babu Samjho Ishare is playing, and Memory is coming up soon, followed by Any Dream Will Do. Beautiful, beautiful!

Tomorrow (err, today; like, in another few hours or so) I'm planning on going to lab. Try (probably unsuccessfully) to get some stuff done, I guess. I'm still in midthought on the whole but-but-but-I-don't-like-programming thing. Seriously. I'm really worried about what my folks are going to think if I get an unappetizing job description like "Shipping Clerk" or something, and I. assures me that it's not a good job. But I have to start at the bottom, don't I? And I'd really like a job where I get to do things, not just make pretend things happen on computer screens. Where all my frustrations aren't the result of somebody else's design decisions. I mean, I want to be like the ship captains of old (or, err, now, I guess), where you're doing the best you can with what you've got. That's the kind of functioning (I think) I've always liked. Plus, that way, I can leave work at work, where right now - no, well, okay, that's not a valid complaint, I guess.

I still need to keep the Mac shareware dream alive, otherwise I won't have anything to do in case none of my applications work out (out of 8 applications, only two people have even looked at my resume thus far; one has rejected me, the other has put me "on hold"). I mean, if it comes down to that, I'd much rather be working on my own than working for anybody else.

Ah, here's Memory now :). It's nice to know that however horrible things might be (and trust me, they haven't even started getting horrible yet), you can always put on a song like this and just feel the beauty of the music.

Labels: any dream will do, life, memory, programming, thoughts, today

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